~Apprehension~

 

You know, I tried to hide but Iʼve started to think that, Iʼm just a creation of my own self esteem.
Iʼve been produced as a product to a system thatʼs driven me to scream at every action I take. Oh...


Iʼm so alone, but Iʼm only to blame. Iʼll take what I can then Iʼll push you away.
Itʼs not the space or that I canʼt relate, Iʼll take what I can then Iʼll push you away.


I tried disguise but proceeded to think that, part of me is broken and Iʼm starting to sink.
Iʼve been composed, but itʼs all been an act, the fear is fucking building and I..


Iʼm so alone, but Iʼm only to blame. Iʼll take what I can then Iʼll push you away.
Itʼs not the space or that I canʼt relate, Iʼll take what I can then Iʼll push you away.


Itʼs crippling apprehension in a worry laden cage
Itʼs black and blue patches on my outlook of change
itʼs someone throwing rope, me pulling it part.
Following a strand ‘til Iʼm looking at the dark.
Itʼs rationalisation a chance to vindicate.
Paltry excuses Iʼm making every day.
Itʼs unrelenting pressure hesitation made of bricks.
And Iʼm really not sure I can get through this.
I tried to hide but I started to think
that Iʼm just a creation of my goddamn unease.


Iʼm so alone, but Iʼm only to blame. Iʼll take what I can then Iʼll push you away.
Itʼs not the space or that I canʼt relate, Iʼll take what I can then Iʼll push you away.


Iʼm so detached I can't get a grip, Iʼll take what I can then Iʼll push you away.
Itʼs not you, no, Iʼm not equipped Iʼll take what I can then Iʼll push you away.


Itʼs crippling apprehension in a worry laden cage
Itʼs black and blue patches on my outlook of change
itʼs someone throwing rope, me pulling it part.
Following a strand ‘til Iʼm looking at the dark.
Itʼs rationalisation a chance to vindicate.
Paltry excuses Iʼm making every day.
Itʼs unrelenting pressure hesitation made of bricks. 

And Iʼm really not sure I can get through this.